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Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Thursday, June 8th, 2006

My friend Michael sent me this Pablo Neruda poem. The man knows sadness.

Tonight I can write

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, ‘The night is starry
and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.’

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is starry and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another’s. She will be another’s. As she was before my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

translated by W.S. Merwin

Treacherous gap

Saturday, May 27th, 2006

Slithering thoughts
butt and buck,
unkindled.

Cutting away,
shutting away,
the ache of manufactured nonchalance.

Cursing between my heart and tongue
a tumultuous hurricane describes
the treacherous gap.

Illustration Friday: Sorry

Friday, May 19th, 2006

protector

‘Shit’she said.

‘I’ve lost it.’ Dragging her fingers aimlessly
through the bits and pieces of people she used to know.

‘It’s got to be here somewhere’.

I look at the box, but my search starts
with her rigid, angry shoulders,
Awkward flutters subsiding under seismographic hands.

Churning loose the dammed muscles,
melting spasms of denial,
exposing caverns of hot, hot shame.

The eruption shakes her whole slender frame.
Wrapped and rocked in my arms she sobs
ten years of damage into my lap.

‘It’s OK,’ I murmur through her hair in my mouth.

‘I found what I came here for.’

Sick poem(note to self: National Geo videos not the best choice when feverish)

Wednesday, May 10th, 2006

Fire termites gnaw my brain
crunching voraciously
through roots, cables and beams
culling the rotten, misbegotten and dead.

Structures totter and sway
under the assault of the masticating millions.
Shiny translucent alien marshmallow bodies,
blindly chew and chew and chew.

Greed’s reckless proficient progress plows selfish
tunnels through ecosystems, shoves the world
into hyperdrive, heedlessly eradicates the forest lords.
Beavers vanish as aspens die out for lack of wolves eating elk.

My temperature skyrockets, head pounds,
wondering how one can be so hot, so cold,
so stuck in one ridiculously wretched moment.
Brilliant, stupid. Insane.

Just like the rest of my species.

A little crazy midnight poetry

Tuesday, April 25th, 2006

It stings like dirt in a splinter hole,
pummels down my craw with the urgent burn of a nettle shot.
Stuttering, sputtering, flips me willy nilly,
a sun-burned pancake,
now sizzling with hot buttered readiness.

Thoughts scatter, flustered, grabbing.
try to hide my luscious eager yes beneath
a leaflitter of rapid, vapid extemporization,
slightly moldy explanations and fluttering masses of old poetry.

Ottering to the surface, I see you
leapfrog the swiftly flowing excuses,
the squirming mistakes,
landing squarely-bop!
bop!
bop!
on the heads of
mythological exs I thought I’d buried deeper.

Impossible! I declare, glaring at your beautiful face.
You can’t be here,
holding my fractious, drunken heart
in your tender hands.

Wicked

Tuesday, April 18th, 2006

My son was with his dad for Easter weekend and consequentially, or perhaps serendipitously, all sorts of wild parties were flung about Seattle for me.

Luckily, I’d just scored bigtime in the naughty wardrobe dept!(thanks, Sandra!)

My ‘cocktail’ attire, for the birthday bash(Many happy returns, Cara!):

cock

and, amping(or perhaps vamping?) the badness just a little for SINchronisity:

sin

I also wrote(and read) some poetical stuff for Josh’s fantastic Seder feast.

Ahem:

‘What I came here for’

‘Shit’she said.

‘I’ve lost it.’ Dragging her fingers aimlessly
through the bits and pieces of people she used to know.

‘It’s got to be here somewhere’.

I look at the box, but my search starts
with her rigid, angry shoulders,
Awkward flutters subsiding under seismographic hands.

Churning loose the dammed muscles,
melting spasms of denial,
exposing caverns of hot, hot shame.

The eruption shakes her whole slender frame.
Wrapped and rocked in my arms she sobs
ten years of damage into my lap.

‘It’s OK,’ I murmur through her hair in my mouth.

‘I found what I came here for.’

and, on a more erotic note(avert your mind if girlgirl sex offends thee), here’s my guided meditation for the evening:

Close your eyes, my friends. It’s a warm, sunny day. You are feeling languid, happy and unashamedly self-indulgent, lying on this soft velvet comforter, spread luxuriantly upon a very cozy bed. Utterly relaxed, you stretch blissfully, arms over head, lacing your fingers through the curved bronze fronds of the bedframe, pulling slightly to enhance and intensify that delicious, almost painful end range of the stretch in your shoulders.

Dazzling golden sunshine slants through the blinds, ribbing your body with alternating lines of darkness and brilliance. Releasing your grip, your hands slide over the familiar lines of your face and continue down to caress your beautiful body, fondly fondling your angles and curves as you breathe in the sweet fresh spring air through the slightly open window, redolent with the scent of cherry blossoms.

Now you are ready.

These fertile valleys and gorgeous swelling hills are mine and hers. Belly to belly and breast to breast.

There’s no softness in the whole damn world like my breasts against hers. The salt-licked succulence of her explodes my senses.

She enters my bedroom, stalks me lynxlike, on feather soft paws and pounces in flurries of giggles that morph into growls as I feel the heat in her eyes rise from my skin.

I reach out, but she pushes me down onto the purple velvet and buckle by buckle, layers of leather and lace drop from her deft fingers, festooning the bed with crumpled chocolate elegance.

My tigress unsheathes her luxurious breasts, they spill free, heavy, sun-striped, glorious.

An amused eyebrow arches at my dazzled expression, but she doesn’t stop my upward surge and I bury my face in her, marvel at the exquisite weight of boobs so unlike my own tiny plums.

We tumble, her giggles gone gasping wiggles as I wrap myself around her like a mating snake, all curves and sinuous coils.

So much softness! Giddy, I lose myself in her mouth, tasting the outrageous heady richness of her, almost overwhelmed by her dancing fingers

clever, intuitive, pearl-diver fingers, tracing their perilous patterns in and out and round and round and round…

Her teasing circles send excited whispers through my belly, her spirals radiate up my spine and her figure eights?

Well, let’s just say, I’m glad the neighbors are old and deaf.

This weekend was such mad fun-it’s a magnificent blurr of parties and inebriated crushes and many, many delicious kisses. I’ll prolly post some more pics later if I cajol the approval of my sexy cohorts.

Love y’all.

Spewing words like an endless stream of tears

Monday, April 17th, 2006

My friend Danni has been gushing an outrageous torrent of stream of consciousness writing and gorgeous poetry from her blizzard-wracked dream shack in a tiny Alaskan village.

ice

I miss lattes
and smoothies
hugs and being loonie
the afterglow
the beforeglow
and a group of friends baying at the full moon
car rides
bike rides
the holding of hands
the raising of glasses
a certain connection of heart
walks down an alley
the back way
the side way
the mountains in the morning.
There are moments, here, there are
but I miss,
still
I miss…

Soon, Danni, so soon.

:)

Sleepless nights breed poetry

Sunday, March 12th, 2006

Lizard sleek, taffy smooth,
elastic wiggles, supple, subtle curves.

Push! Uh, uh, uh…

The loose seam bulges, bursts open,
wet crease visible, increasing, releasing.

Aaaaaah, whoosh!

Bodyslapping forceful branches inside
a forest of missing socks and ardent, wayward cocks

CHA!

Got it, peeled aside the clever layers,
fought it, caught it, tossed it, lost it, lost it…

Ha!

Cast past the pinching, over the divisible line
Tasting wild, delicious space, taking her own awesome place,

She comes.

CUNT

Thursday, March 9th, 2006

Cunt is not a dirty word.
It’s a word of power,
like COCK and FUCK and FURY.

Cunt is thunder rolling,
lightning striking,
rain drenching parched skin.

The matrix of creation glows between our thighs
and the cuntless bush in charge of our country
would have you believe it’s worthless.

But Kali was dancing on her husband Shiva’s body long
before that fool and his moneyed minions suckled at their
mother’s milky-white tits…

And so they play the clever, stupid game.

The stink of cuntfearing cunthatred is masked,
wreathed in cunning flowery subterfuge or medical jargon,
they sanitize, debase, erase, silence, disconnect, numb and usurp
the very nexus of our freedom, joy and power.

Fear shadows us.

Pieces parade past, breasts and bellies plaster buses,
Asses litter billboards and a hundred pretty smiles glitter vacuously from magazine pages
selling trucks, ipods, vodka, mortgages and american apparel.

Guilt and shame suck our brains out.

Good girls, pretty girls, pleasing, oh-so-sexy, compliant girls…
Girls at each other’s throats, clawing, envious girls, angry,
shame-filled, venemous… Girls slowly boiling into women.

Brittle, bitter women.

Dazzled by flim-flam, bereft, sick at heart. Women.
Women ashamed to bleed, afraid to speak out loud, let alone
say that shameful, dirty word. That dangerously, utterly female word.

Cunt.

Cunt.

Cunt.

That gorgeous, edible word. That hungry tigress word.

That bloody, incredible word.

Cunt.

(I wished I’d had time to rehearse it, I hadn’t read in public for a longass time, but it worked out OK, since the audience was liberally strewn with the smiling faces of my friends)

:)

Bestest birthday ever!

Thursday, March 9th, 2006

We took over the Trabant Chai House on monday.

It was outrageous. I have the coolest friends ever! They totally mobilized, showed up in force and performed their sweet little hearts out in my honor.

I couldn’t believe it. Music(Josh even did a rockin’ version of my ol’ Booty Rising poem), poetry(I read my long cunt poem and Daniel read his short one), performance…

sheri

Sheri danced her fabulous heart out, accompanied by Maris on the flute, an’ then DB an her unexpectedly rocked out the most amazing, mindblowing ‘happy birthday’ rendition ever.

Tessa made the most amazing and delicious cuntcake I’ve ever had the pleasure of tasting:

cake

I felt so totally loved and celebrated.

My heartthanks to all of you wonderful, wonderful friends who came out an’ showed your love so brilliantly, warmly and affectionately.

Thanks to the chai house for loaning us their plates an spoons and John an’ Catrayl for helping me clean up the chocolatey mess we made an’ Ben for ’sitting the Sam so’s I could stay out and party…

My momma,

mome

fer bein’ my momma an’ fer taking me an’ Sam out to dinner the next day(on my real birfday) when I was tired and grouchy…

Damn, I’m a lucky woman.